Trouble feeling connected? Meditation for 4/8/14

Awendaw; SC

“There remains the feeling that God is on the journey too.”  - Mother Teresa of Avila

“God has no religion.”  - Ghandi 

   The work that it takes to stay in the spiritual zone is not complex, it is simple.  But it is often far from easy and rarely seems to make sense.  For instance, we need to keep showing up, but when we show up it is our job to get out of the way.  What sense does this make?  The ego is certain we have shown because it is so important and has work to do – work that we will perform and then put on suitable displays of humility of course.  But nothing spiritual can come through when we are locked in any of the various faces of ego, and try as we might we will never get the results that come from staying out of the way and just doing the work that intuition specifies.  Indeed, for me it seems that half my energy is spent on getting out of the way.  But it is energy well spent – when I am successful at staying out of the way the results that come seem effortless and are far superior to the results that come about when I am pursuing an agenda.

     The other aspect of this that is difficult is the fact that we are only shown one thing at a time.  I want to know where things are going so I can “properly plan.”  I am not satisfied unless I can see the next ten “right things” to do, and my mind is constantly projecting what those will be.  This gets me off track so often that it undoubtedly is the number one cause when I find myself “out of the zone.”

     I have had this notion that God – or whatever you call that essence we tap into – is all knowing and all seeing.  I have thought that this essence purposely held me on a string, only letting me see one bit at a time as though this were some amusing game or something.  It has led me to get rebellious as I end up feeling like a mule with blinders on, who when he tires of chasing the carrot gets the lash of pain to propel him on.  But the statement above by Mother Teresa gives me pause.  Who says that the spirit knows all of the dynamics, and is aware of whether others are going to tap into the spirit also or will be following their self will?  After all, if the spirit knew everything ahead of time this whole exercise we call life would seem pretty boring for it. 

     If I allow for the notion that God may not have all the answers as it relates to the future it makes me feel a lot more like a partner.  It allows me to be the hands and feet, to be the eyes and the mouthpiece without feeling like I am simply parroting out some role that I have to in order to have peace in my life.  I don’t claim to have the answer, but I find this works better for me.  And, as is the case with any belief, the value of the belief is not in convincing others that it is correct, it is in whether the perspective holds up when the rubber hits the road.  It worked for me again today, I think I will try it again tomorrow.

Today, may I be open.

Have a great Tuesday !!

David

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